Monthly Archive for March, 2010

Meanwhile, at CERN …

I interrupt the normal agenda of this blog for the announcement that the Large Hadron Collider physics programme will begin with collisions in the LHC at 7 TeV (= energy level) today (30 March 2010).
Several webcasts are available from CERN, including life footage from the control rooms of the different LHC experiments: Atlas, Alice, CMS and LHCb.

There is a schedule page here.
Background videos, interviews etcetcetc here.
There is more information, like the animated LHC Status Display … just look around.

This is just soooo exciting!!!!
After 20 years of preparation … it is supposed to start in 30min. It will take some time to prepare for the injection and … in 1 hour and a half the first collisions at 7eV are supposed to occure.

Oh yeah, they will provide pictures.
Continue reading ‘Meanwhile, at CERN …’


Spilling the beans, er, coffee …

Ok, I got real flak now by some of the readers of this blog because I was so wage in my last post. Sorry. I did not think it would be so terribly interesting to talk about projects that are still in the making, furthermore, well, there is just a lot that still can happen and projects might shift. Apart for some logical reasons for not putting it all on the table right away.

But ok. Let me spill the beans a bit, right? I am so behind on everything do to my lost 3 months, that this might just give me a further push to hurry.

I actually listed the three new projects in the sidebar as work in progress already. Althought merely with working titles.

HUNTed Frankfurt is going to be 100% documentary. But in a different way. From a different angle. It is about the place I am living at in Frankfurt now. Most “normal” people would try to get away from here rather than to move to this area. But I just really, really love it. It feels much more real than the rest of Frankfurt.

Some of you might know “La Grande Bouffe”, a film (1973) directed by Marco Ferreri, starring Marcello Mastroianni, Michel Piccoli, Philippe Noiret. More here and there is some in YouTube too, only that I do not have the time right now to preselect links for this post here … I will certainly come back to that later, even though I did get the dvd.
It is a critical film … so I cannot but smile when I go through google and see how they put a “wedding service” up with that name etc. I certainly would not want to be married under that star.

So two of my projects have a reference to that film. A smaller project, which only needs a couple of days additional work, and a larger one. More of an OPUS really, which will certainly need at least 2-3 years of work. The smaller one is highly conceptual, the larger one is documentary. I have a lot of expectation regarding both of them, especially because they will use a completely different approach to say a similar thing.

So much for the new projects.

Concerning the “old” ones, that I am working on again, I was talking about the “Catch me if I can” Journals.
I just came up with an additional way of presentation, as the original way, that I had planned, has still not found a way to be materialized in a way I could accept. That one is ready to be printed out. All settled and done. I will now make a series out of it, to broaden the message.

I was also talking about Wallpaper. Same same. Rework on it is done, all is ready for the printer and … it is definitively going to be a series.

Next would be “A Stranger’s Wish”.
It is amazing how things expand sometimes when you have time to think them over. I always had this hate-love relationship with this project. I knew what part I hated and so the point was to eliminate that part. I worked hard on this one, and then I put it into a drawer for some time. The best thing to do when I get stuck – and the reason why I like to work on so many different projects simultaneously. It actually is not simultaneously, but it gives me time to step back and get a fresh look at things. “A Stranger’s Wish” – or the postcard project – evolved into various different branches. Each of which I like now. No. Each of which I LOVE! So it was a good thing after all.

Concerning the old projects, my first aim was merely to get them OUT there. They were finished, but I never worried about having them published or displayed because I was already working on the next projects. It is more interesting for me to work on projects than to worry about them once they are done. Nevertheless it leaves this feeling of incompleteness … And I cannot really present the project on the website either. It is stupid. So that was my main reason to get back to them. Just – and I knew that would happen – once I look at them again, I need to work on them again too. Not necessarily in a sense of change, but in a sense of addition. I just become aware of further possibilies that I REALLY would LOVE to add to it. All my projects really go in chapters. And probably they will accompany me until my last days. Who needs more projects, right? What is a project anyway? For me it is nothing but a name for something that I am interested in as a person. An idea. A concept. And I will still be interested in this after the end of a specific project … so it is no wonder it feels like I could go on turning that theme around in my hands.

Everything I do here, including the Illustration&photography posts, is of utter importance to me. I think about it and work with it regardless of if I write about it or not. It has always been like this, there is no reason for it to change. Especially not as long as the topics are fairly universal. And my topics are universal. “Meaning”, right? It is all about that one. Everything I do. So much so that I will probably take it away as a project and just write a blogpost about it. At the end of the day “Meaning” is the only project I am working on. Every other project could be considered as a subproject.

Sorry, rereading the post, I see that everything is still cryptic. Actually I am a little overwhelmed. I DID think until recently, that I was doing a monologue type of thing here. I did not look at the statistics, which tell me that I have several hundred readers here every day. So my feeling of responsibility just did a big awakening jump. I might find a way to show some work-in-progress type of thing. Maybe with a newsletter that requires registering. Let me think about this for a while.


Out To Eat

My life has always been extremely busy. I have constantly been running at 250%. As long as I can remember. Even in Kindergarden. And always it is my deep belief that things will settle down as soon as I get “this” or “that” done. That I will be able to relax then. But it never happened, because … well because I always found new things I wanted to do right away, new ideas to test. It has always been ike this and I cannot imagine my life any other way. Even though I need some contrast program once in a while.

Just the other day in November (dang … 4 months ago already!) I decided to eliminate a whole branch of stuff I was doing to have more time for my photography work. It was a simple matter of opportunity costs and I was so happy with this decision! Finally, I thought, I would have enough time do do one ADDITIONAL project. Ha! That night I had the idea for 3 further projects which I am just dying to do right away. Three, not one. And I just could not decide on which one to do first. It just seemed too damn hard to postpone the other two. Do you agree with me that my mind likes to play games on me?

And then I got sick.

My doctors were just soooooooo sure that I was totally overworked, close to a burn out, or that maybe I had a burn out already that … well, they just did not think to check my thyroid gland, which had simply gradually given up. To be sincere, I think I have been fighting this loss for a much longer time, but I am a disciplined person and I got used to fight the symptoms. It became normal. Until I had no energy left. That was right after the BURNparty last December. And then I went to sleep. For 3 months.

Now things are fine. Kudos to the doctor who diagnosed me right – this actually runs in my family, as I found out – and kudos to the modern medicine, who offers me the hormones, that my dearest gland does not want to produce anymore, in a synthetic form. I am really glad I do not live in the middle ages! So I am up in the game again, planning to surpass my 100th birthday working as I am now. Of course I am sketching out all the the projects mentioned above, to start them now (do not tell anyone, but I have already started). I even picked up 3 old projects to give them an additonal twist and take them further. After 3 months of sleeping aimlessly around, I am desperately UNDERworked!!!

Why the pic above? I am taking a liking to working in cafés, restaurants and places in general where there are a lot of people. I am totally enjoying the fuzzing and buzzing … it thrills me, gives me new ideas. Strange really, because up to last December, I needed complete quietness to work on concepts – I could not concentrate otherwise. Funny how things change. Oh well … So the above pic was taken on my last night out. I went to a very nice Chinese restaurant around the corner. Guess what I had for dinner? :)


Quoting Phil Toledano

I do not usually like to repeat stuff … But I will make an exception for some quotes.

“What matters I think is not the process, but the end result… Otherwise, Warhol’s soap boxes etc, would be of no interest at all, if we were to judge art by how easy it is to create…Since the process is almost always invisible in art, the sense of wonder, for me at least, remains – an extraordinary idea, a beautiful thought, a skilled hand… ”

source: Conscientious Extended | A Conversation with Phil Toledano.

I found it over at A Photo Editor … Sometimes things go around and around. And sometimes that is ok.

Of course I only agree to the quote partially. I agree that this is the way I think when I look at finished material, especially at the material of others. When it comes to my own work, I find the process tremendously interesting! I have to, after all, when I am speaking about “the process” I am speaking about my life. The process is my life. Simple as that. So it better be interesting! The resulting work is merely the Journal … A receipt for a specific slice of time on this earth.


New Book Design

After coming up with the logo, the new bookdesign was a logical step.



Featured in BURNmagazine

I got a totally nice Skype message from David Alan Harvey the other day, telling me that one of my images from the workshop with Antonin Kratochvil in Transylvania was up on BURNmagazine. I had totally forgotten about that submission and my first thought was that there was some mistake or mix-up. But there was none and I am very happy to see this image up on BURN.

The Transylvania workshop was an amazing experience for me. Very intense. It gave me a lot to chew. I wanted to force some decisions and for that I needed additional oppinions. The workshop in Transylvania was just one of these lucky things that happen at the right time. Not only did Transylvania sound perfect, Antonin Kratochvil did sound perfect too. Back at that time I was reworking the concept for A Stranger’s Wish and thus very interested in portraiture. I have to admit – hopefully without sounding arrogant – that most portraiture I see around strikes me as utterly boring. Along my researches I stumbled across Antonin’s old portraiture photographs and they left me with a deep longing and curiosity, which made me constantly want to go back to them to try to grasp “it”. It was like I was feeding on them. And this kind of excitement is one of the things I expect from photography/art. On top of that Antonin was said to be ruthless, mean, direct, sincere, not sparing, only caring about photography and not about someone’s feelings – exactly what I was looking for!

I do not mean to say that I am a masochist. But I wanted some slaps of truth in my face. I had not found photography as a toddler neither did I grew up with it in any way. I was a trained architect and working on filmprojects for several years before it struck me. LATE! If I wanted to do something with photography, I needed to see where I was standing and I needed to just suck in whatever information possible to see if this path made sense at all for me …

David Alan Harvey was already helping me enormously by throwing the right questions into the arena, but you need more than one star to be able to define your position when you navigate. And I was looking for another star. A dark star. I found it.


Spring on film

Everybody is waiting for spring, right? So to get you into the mood, here is something I found on the contact sheet of my latest Holga experiment. If you look closely you will see two flowers. At least I hope you will. A little imagination please!

With this I also want to ask for some more patience on your side. I have been getting concerned emails asking for the continuation of the photography & illustration theme, and I am terribly sorry for the delay. Believe me, I do have a huge stack of books & projects from all over the world waiting to be mentioned … BUT I am on a tight assignment right now until the end of March. The only thing I am managing to throw in between the lines, are my little ramblings and weather reports.

The next time I have a couple of hours free, I will come up with Eggleston for you. Promised.


New Snow in Town

ok ok, this image is from mid February, I admit, but I could almost have reshooted it today – if it were not for two facts: firstly it did not snow quite enough, and secondly … well … there is a scaffold obstructing the view to this back yard since today. After we complained to the house owners that we do not have any buckets left to collect the incoming rain, they finally decided that it was time to renew the roof. I found out by accident after noticing someone outside our kitchen window this morning, and recalling that we live on the 4th floor!

I wanted to redo the image for fun today after noticing that it had started to snow again in the night – especiall because I saw that they still have the christmas lights in the little trees! – but as I have to really lean out of the kitchen window and shoot blindly to get it, I fear this will have to wait some more weeks, until the scaffolding is gone again. I hope they don’t remove the lights until then.


Presentation is (Almost) Everything

As secretly expected I was terribly unhappy about the PINK LOBO dummy books that I got from several online printing services. Every book looked totally different and none looked like it was supposed to. Too bad … So I am stopping this ousourcing experiment for PINK LOBO, which in fact is a hard nut due to it’s colors in any case.

I got me an Epson Stylus Pro 3800 a while ago and will start to do my own prints. I am really sick and tired to wait and to depend on others when it comes to this utterly important part of my work. And I just have to be honest with myself here: my work IS hard to print! At least most of it – yes I know.

Actually I am looking forward to do my own printing. It is good to stay in control when it comes to presenting your work.